TO ANGST SOMEWHERE.

HERE IS GOOD, I GUESS.

INSTEAD OF DA, CAUSE THEY DON'T WANT MY ANGST.

/cruisecontrol

man, i am DRUNK.

i don't even know what i'm angsting about except that Rudey seems to suddenly not want to talk to me ever over something I did. I don't think I did anything ACK.


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That is all. /rant     

I'm off to hospital right now, wish me luck.

Ha, I would definitely take my laptop, and a power cable obviously. I'm sure you can pick up wireless internet in outer space! Sad truth is, if I had the internet, my laptop and my pen tablet I'd probably be fine for a long time, anti-social gumpo that I am. Oh, and a couple of thousand gallons of KB whiskey too.
I'd do well being sent to mars, because it's a red planet. I'm so easily amused that I'd probably just be happy with the fact it was red and not care about burning to death, or whatever.
Besides whiskey and the worldwide web, i'd want a shit load of ice cream, some of those vacuum space foods you can buy at the science museum, a ton of chocolate (if I'm gonna die in space here, might as well enjoy it. Not gonna get to enjoy chocolate any other time seeing as I'm allergic), a forest worth of art paper and my playstation with final fantasy 7. I'd record my progress on LJ as I drank and gorged my way through the game over and over again, slowly dying in a swirling abyss of chocolatey vomit and 3 million degree heat. Hell yeah, doesn't sound like such a bad way to go.

Dear Mr. President,
Come take a walk with me.
Let's pretend we're just two people and
You're not better than me.
I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly.

What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street?
Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep?
What do you feel when you look in the mirror?
Are you proud
How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why?

Jesus H. Christ, I find it hard to explain my borderline or whatever my girlfriend calls it... but ouch, do you know how much it hurts to be honestly depressed?

Noones ever seen it fit for me to cry over any situation, so I never have.

What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away?
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay?

I'm so scared about what my mom will say when she meets my girlfriend and finds out that she is exactly that. She might even disown me. I'm not sure if even want a girlfriend, or if I just feel like I don't because I'm scared.

Dear Mr. President,
Were you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
How can you say
No child is left behind?
We're not dumb and we're not blind.
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pave the road to hell.

I feel like I should run away from my problems, but I've done that for too long. I just want to grow up...
...I miss Craig. My gf doesn't even KNOW about craig.
i say i've never fallen in love but i'm not sure. theres me caring bout my friends, then me REALLY caring about my friends and that might be love...
i feel so... alienated.


BAH.

TELL ME BOUT YOUR BEST AND WORST 'being in love' experiences????


MY BIRTHDAY IS SOON. check my dA for ABOUT MY PART WHICH YOU ARE ALL INVITED TO. ALL OF YOU. ITS A COSTUME/CAMPING PARTY IN LONDON. COMMENT IF YOURE INTERESTED.

i are recounting thems.

i guess it's only appropriate to use this icon D:

so the long and short of this post is I WENT TO MY FIRST EXPO AND IT WAS GREAT.
actually, i think the memory is better than the actual day was because i was too hot, drunk, hungover (yes, both), and my trousers were ripped after an hour.

but the people! the people were great!

there needs to be MOREEEEE conventions so i can cosplay MORE. why is there no summer expo? JULY EXPO? they should do one.

i only actually went on saturday, because it was pouring down with rain in my area on the sunday morning and so i was like DDD: IM NOT GETTING OUT OF BED. not to mention my hangover was impending again and i'd had two hours sleep. but then again, when is my hangover not impending? i should start watching what i drink a bit more.

but it won't happen.

anyway, it seems i've gotten damn good at photo-manips, so i've started using my deviantArt account 'z-ex' and even bought a subscription. uhh. uhh...

i'm still totally rubbish at this Lj thing ^^ so i think i'll go back to eating my box meal now (i wish the boxes werent made of cardboard, they go all floppy in the microwave. -.-) drinking my cherry wine and writing my fanfic. heh. *flee*

GROAN. I am so sick right now. As in, throwing up all night sick.

My back is so totally cramped up, too. Everything seems to fuck with my back at all times. I'm gonna end up in a wheelchair like damn Rufus Shinra.

<3

Con on Friday/Sat/Sunday. I better be well again by then or someones going to get CURB STOMPED.

Anyway, I finally decided to start using Livejournal after what, 3 years? 4?

I had this account open for something else but I can't be bothered to try and find a new username so here we are. Metal-lion. Fantastic. I think it was in relation to Squall? Final Fantasy, ruling my life XD

I feel like I'm gonna pass out T_T